It was such a beautiful day, and the sun was so bright and beautiful and it seemed like it was shining brighter than normal and it felt so so warm and amazing. Everything seemed to sparkle and it felt so so peaceful. I was sitting outside in this park or something and it felt like I was waiting for something or someone. I wasn't sure, but I felt like I was suppose to be there for a reason, like it was planned by me and someone else.
I wasn't hurting, there was no pain and no kind of sorrow, I was really really happy like, I was as happy as I was when Mason and I were together. I had butterflies and it felt like I was excited, it almost felt like I was there to meet up with someone that was very important to me, someone that I loved. I noticed that my hair was done like I was getting ready to go to prom or something.
I had really long platinum blonde hair anyway, but the sun made it look so much lighter and pretty. I was wearing the fanciest dress I think I have ever worn. It was white and it had sparkly things all over it, and with the sun being as bright and warm as it was, I was glowing. It wasn't just from me being happy either, it was like my dress had bright lights all over it but it didn't.
It wasn't like any dress that I had ever worn before, it was long, but it had this really long split that went from my ankle to my hips, and the front drooped really low between my boobs. It drooped down my back and I know that my back was exposed all the way to my butt. I mean I couldn't like, see it or anything, but I could feel a really nice breeze and it felt like it was hitting my bare skin gently, but I could feel my hair too.
I didn't even know why I was dressed like that or why I was even sitting there, let alone what or who I was waiting for. I was looking around and enjoying the warmth of the sun, and I was just amazed at how beautiful the place was. The place was peaceful, it was beautiful and I could feel this amazing sense of peace. I just sat there and looked at all of the things I was surrounded by when out of no where I hear a voice that I recognized, it was a mans voice.
"You know you're wrong right?" The voice asked. I was confused, at first, but then I had this strong feeling that everything was going to be ok, but not only that, I felt a huge surge of excitement and butterflies. Every one of those feelings I had for my first love and never had again since him came flooding back to me to the point that I started to cry.
"What am I wrong about?" I thought. "You're wrong about you Kaylee." The voice said. "What are you talking about?" I thought.
"You." The voice said. Then out of no where Mason walks out of the trees and was heading right to me, and when I saw him, all of the feelings I had for him when we dated overwhelmed me. I felt excitement and couldn't help but tear up while he came walking out from the trees and stood in front of me, takes both of my hands and stands me up. He had that amazing smile on his face, and the look in his eyes sent these amazing feelings through me.
I felt peace, I felt comfort, I felt warm and I felt safe, safer than I ever had. I really can't describe what I was really feeling except that I felt everything I felt with him before he left but it was way way stronger.
I was mesmerized, I was like, completely weak and, oh god I don't even know. "I'm confused." I thought. "When you're ready I hope you let me show you what I'm talking about." He said. "Promise me you'll be there when I'm ready." I thought. "I promise." He said. "Promise me you'll come find me when you're ready." He said with so much love in his eyes. "I promise." I said while I started crying hard. "I'll be waiting, I'll wait for you for as long as it takes for you to be ready. I love you Kaylee, I love you more than you will ever know, I never stopped loving you and I will always love you." He said.
"I love you too Mason, I never stopped loving you and I never will." I said while I cried. We were talking, but our mouths weren't moving at all, he was in my head and apparently I was in his. He got close to me and before I knew it, he kissed me so soft and so gentle and he held that kiss making me melt into him. It was like all of the feelings I felt for him exploded and got so much stronger than I could ever imagine.
After he broke the kiss, he kissed my forehead head and he looked deep in my eyes. He caressed my face before he turned to walk away. I just stood there in a daze when all of a sudden I heard this really loud beeping.
No no no no, please no, I thought when I realized that it was my alarm clock. I opened my eyes and laid there for a minute before I sat up and just sat there on my bed and cried.
I ssssoooo did not want that to be a dream, but it was. I just had an amazing dream about the man that I wanted to be with, the one I should have been with. I sat there and cried for a long time especially since I had just realized that I still missed him really bad. But then it hit me, I really did have a second chance and this was it, I just needed to find him.
I needed to heal because I was hurt by Tim so bad that I was convinced that I was all of the things I mentioned before. The thing was that I was hurt by Tim so bad both physically and mentally, that all I could think of was the worst when it came to Mason.
What if he doesn't like what he sees anymore, I mean, I wasn't fat, I was really skinny even though I had a little bit of fat from being pregnant. I was younger than him, I was almost 20 and he was almost 24, but I still felt really ugly and worthless. What if I did go find him and he just pushed me away? Why did I have doubts about him after so long of being so in love with him?
It was then that I made the decision to look for him and talk to him, I wasn't going to try to date him at all because he lost his fiancé and he had been single ever since. That just meant that he might have been affected by her death. Not only that, but I just got out of a really really bad marriage and I was hurting, but not because I lost Tim, but because I felt that I must have been such a bad wife that I deserved what I went through.
I knew that I may get hurt if he did reject me, but I absolutely had to find him, I had to and it became a first priority for me, it was number one. I made a decision that once I was settled in my new place and healed, I was going to find him. I needed his peace and his comfort, I needed him, I needed my best friend back more than anything else.
I was excited and happy to get out of hell, but I was scared because I didn't have anyone out there, no one. I got up and motivated myself, so I took a shower as best as I could, brushed my teeth, got dresses, did my make up, straightened my hair and got ready. I called mom and she came over and helped me for a while. That's when she gave me some pictures that Mason and I had taken by a professional photographer.
They were way way cute and I looked happier than I had ever been in my life, and he looked so so happy. We looked like we were in love with each other, because we were! Then she helped me put my pictures away in a safe spot and I opened my front door and waited. Oh my god I was anxious! I couldn't sit or stand still at all, so I left the front door open while mom went to pack my hair straightener, the clothes I wore, and the make up I used. While she was doing that, I remembered, my book!
I started to look for it and couldn't find it and I started to panic, I wanted that book that mom just gave me and I couldn't find it.
Mom helped me look everywhere and I even started to cry because we couldn't find it, I had to have that book. Finally after crying, panicking, and tearing the house apart, we found it.
I sat down and held that book against me, I felt so so relieved! I held it close to me for a minute before I went and put it in my purse before I unpacked my make up and fixed my face.
I think I checked my purse at least a dozen times after that to make sure my book was there. Finally it was 11:30, and I was so anxious and nervous that I was feeling sick, but then I got a call. "Hello?" I asked. "Hey is this Kaylee?" A person asked. "Yes." I said. "We just wanted to call to see if you're ready to do this." It said. "Yes I'm ready, I'm so ready." I said. "Ok, we are almost there, is all of your stuff ready?" It asked. "Yes, my car is packed and I have everything I'm taking by the door, can we hurry?" I asked making the voice laugh.
"You're really ready to get out of there aren't you?" It asked with a laugh. "You have no idea." I said. "Your mom said that you're in a lot of pain, are you going to be ok?" The voice asked. "Yes I'm fine, I didn't take any pain pills this morning, I want out of here." I said. "Oh wow, she is ready!" Another voice said while they both laughed. "Well, you're about to see four cars pull up, they are our security, is there room in your driveway for us to park?" The voice asked.
"Yes, I'll move my car so you have more room." I said. "Awesome, we'll see you soon." The voice said. "Oh my gosh I can't wait." I said making her laugh.
"Oh Kaylee, one more thing, you have broken bones and your still hurting, all we want you to do is point out everything you're taking and let us do all the work ok?" Another voice said.
"Ok, thank you sssoooo much." I said. "You are very welcome." The voice said. We hung up, and after we did that, I asked if mom could park my car on the street so there was room in the driveway, so she did that for me.
It was only a minute before the four cars that they said would be there got to my house, and I watched from my front door while a white truck pulled in and backed in the driveway. "Hi Kaylee." One person said while they got out of the truck.
"I'm ready." I said while they all got out and opened the back of their truck. "Ok, so what do we have?" The driver asked. "All of this and that's it, everything else she's taking is in her car." Mom said. "This is it?" The front passenger asked. "Yes it is, I wanna get out of here fast." I said.
"Ok let's go." The driver said. It all started moving really fast! There were four people that were taking my stuff to the truck and I tried to help, my mom and the three girls. I grabbed my purse and held onto it after I looked to see if my book was still there. It only took like, five minutes to get all of my stuff in their truck, and once we finished going through the house, I went to my car and mom walked me to the car so we could say goodbye.
Saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest things I ever did, but at the same time, I knew it wasn't going to be the last time I talked to her but after we said goodbye she left.
The security guys were really happy that it didn't take very long at all and they even shook my hand because I had everything ready to go like I did. "Do you know how to get out of here fast?" The driver asked. "Yeah I do, do you wanna follow me?" I asked.
"Yes, but drive fast." The driver said. The person that was in the back seat of the truck got in my car with me and we were off, and I drove really fast because I wanted to get out of there. We got out of town, and after that I got behind the white truck and we ended up driving for a long time, it was well over an hour maybe two.
All I know was that it didn't feel like it was that long at all, and when we got to where we were going, we pulled into this really nice gated apartment complex and up to a town house. The people took me into the house and walked around with me before we unpacked everything from my car and the truck. And that's when it all hit me, I was free!
I was free from the prison I grew up in, I was free from the complete control that the order had on me and I was free from the people who only married other wives for sex! I was free from it all! It was so overwhelming that I couldn't hold my tears back anymore, I started to sob. I was free, I was free! The people that helped me stayed with me and when I was able to get my composure back, I hugged all of them for helping me get out of hell.
Those people were my angles, they were my saviors from the life of hell that I was born into, from the life that broke me in more ways than one, starting from the day that they took my first love away from me. I ordered dinner because mom got into my bank account and gave me some of my money, and we all ate and I told them everything that happened to me.
And after a while, one of the people looked at me. "So tell us about this Mason guy." One girl said making me feel all warm. "You're blushing." Another said. "I can't help it." I said with a giggle. "Your mom says that he was your first love." The one that rode in my car with me said. "He was, I loved him so so much. My life ended when he got taken away front me, it ruined my life." I said while I started to tear up. "Did he love you?" The first girl asked.
"Yeah he did, he loved me as much as I loved him. You know how 14 and 15 year old girls get married all the time in the order?" I asked. "Yeah, that's happens all the time." The third one asked. "I really really didn't wanna get married that young, but when Mason and I fell in love like we did, I changed my mind, I loved him that much." I said. "How old was he?" The second girl asked. "Eighteen." I said. "So did the order say anything about you two getting married?" The first one asked.
"He was the first boy on my list so they approved it and told us to start planning our marriage." I said. "So was Mason ok with marrying you?" The third girl asked. "At first he wasn't because he didn't wanna marry a girl that young." I said. "But you changed his mind." The first girl said. "Yeah I did, we really really loved each other." I said.
"What would you have done if he married his second wife?" The first girl asked. "It never would have happened. He loved me so much that he was going to wait till I graduated high school and then he was going to run away with me so he wouldn't have to worry about that." I said.
"So he didn't want to marry anyone else?" The second girl asked. "No he didn't. He said that I was all he wanted, he only wanted me to be his wife." I said. "Wow, he was really in love with you." The first girl said. "I know." I said. "Would you be ok with running away with him?" The second girl asked. "Oh yeah, I was ready to. We were planning our marriage out already, but when it was just me and him, we started to figure out where we were going to run away to. He even helped me look at different colleges that I could go to and we looked at apartments near those colleges." I said.
"He was going to let you go to college?!" The first girl asked all surprised. "Yeah he was, he was even going to work and help pay for my college tuition and he was going to let me have a real career." I said. "Oh my god, he really really loved you, that's so amazing!" The third girl said.
"I loved him just as much, he was so so amazing." I said. "You still love him don't you?" The third girl asked. "Yeah I do." I said while I wiped my tears. "Clearly, so has it always been like this with him?" The driver asked.
"Well, yeah it kinda was. We actually started talking at my birthday party and we became really really good friends after that, he was my best friend in the whole world.
I could tell him anything, we laughed all the time and we did everything together. He never tried to court me at all during that time, he was just an amazing friend, but some time during all of that I like." I said. "You fell in love with him." The first one said. "Yeah, I did." I said. "When did he fall in love with you?" The third girl asked. "The same time I fell in love with him." I said. "Did you guys ever go on a date?" The first one asked. "Oh yeah but we didn't go on a date till after we were best friends for the longest time but yeah we finally did, he asked my mom for permission to take me out." I replied.
"So how did you guys find out that you were in love with each other?" The second one asked. "On our first date, we were playing mini golf and I was watching him. We were playing a game to see who could distract who the most, and I just had to tell him that I was in love with him, I had to, so I just told him that I was." I said.
"What did he say when you told him that you were in love with him?" The first one asked. "He kissed me." I said. "Really?!" The third girl asked. "Yeah, he kissed me." I said. "Look at you, you're glowing." The second one said. "Did he tell you that he was in love with you too?" The first girl asked. "Yes he did, he told me that he was in love with me before that night." I said. "So did you guys like, know each other before?" The one that rode with me asked.
"Well yeah, he's my cousin." I said. "You really fell hard for him didn't you?" The driver asked. "You can say that." I said. "Do you still love him?" The one that rode with me asked. "I don't think I'll ever not love him like that." I said. I LLLLOVED that they all kept asking questions about Mason, I loved it! And because of that I ended up talking about him for thee longest time.
They could see that I still loved him, I mean, it was pretty obvious. I don't know how long it was after we got there that they left, but I was so tried that I went to bed.
I tried to sleep but I couldn't because I was hurting again. So I got up and took some pain pills, then I went and got my book out of my purse and laid back down. I laid there staring at the book with Masons name and thinking about what I was going to say to him. I didn't realize that there was so much that I wanted to say to him until then. I wanted to tell him that I wasn't mad at him for leaving me the way he did, I mean like, I was mad at him at first because I felt like he abandoned me.
I was mad at him because if he wouldn't have left me the way he did, I wouldn't have gone through everything I did with Tim, I wouldn't have even courted him at all. But after Tim beat me up so bad that he killed my baby, I started to understand why he beat his dad up for beating his mom and sisters up.
I get how he must have felt when he walked into that house to what he did. I wanted him to know that I understood why he did what he did, I just wish he wouldn't have been taken out of the order because when they took him away, they took a huge huge part of me away with him. While I was trying to figure out what I was going to say to him when I saw him again, I fell asleep and I had the exact same dream about Mason that I did the night before, and just like the last one, it seemed so so real.
Months and months went by and I wish I could say that things improved after I escaped the order and from my soon to be ex, but it wasn't all that amazing. I wished that I was as happy as I hoped I would be, and I wished that I wouldn't be hurting so so bad.
I wished that my life was never ruined the way it was. It was amazing, I loved my life and I loved everything that was going on with me, and it was all because of Mason. I suffered from depression really really bad, and it was so bad that I was starting to get suicidal. I started drinking like crazy just so I could numb the pain that I was feeling, and it only worked while I was drunk.
I hated getting drunk, but at the time it was all I could think of to do to stop hurting. I got a job, and I had a lot of boys that wanted to be with me, but I was never interested in any of them because they weren't Mason. I never went on any dates and I wasn't interested in going on any unless it was with him.
I was still living in fear too because Tim still hadn't been found, so I lived my life looking over my shoulder even though I had my own security. I tried, I really tried but every time I did, I would fall on my face. I would live outside of the order and be miserable over going back and living in fear and getting beat up by men any day, so going back to the order wasn't even an option for me.
I was physically broken but that all healed for the most part. My bruises were gone and my collar bone was healed and all my swelling was gone, but my arm was still healing. I didn't have a hard cast anymore, but I did have some kind of brace now. The problem was that mentally and emotionally, I was still broken and I was still bleeding really bad. I thought the worst of myself and it was so bad that I was almost convinced that I was not good enough for Mason.
I was almost convinced that he needed to find another girl that was way better than I could ever be. I was convinced that he would be better off without me because I was the worst girlfriend and wife anyone could ever have and my last marriage proved that to me. Mason was incredible, he was amazing, he was my life, he was my world, but I was almost convinced that I didn't deserve a guy like him because there is no way that I could ever make him happy.
I failed miserably as a wife this time, and I was convinced that I would fail as a wife to the man that I loved more than life itself. And since I loved him, I felt like I needed to let him go so he could be happy and not miserable like he would be with me. I couldn't do that to him because I loved him way too much.
The other thing was that I looked for Mason as best as I could, but I couldn't find him and I ran out of places and ways to look. I still really really loved him, he was still the love of my life and when I got drunk, I would always think about him and sob because I wanted to be in his arms, I needed him more than anything in this world.
I don't know how, but I just knew that if I could find my Mason and we were able to become best friends again, my life would get right back on track, I would be happy again, I needed him more than anyone could ever understand.
I sobbed so so hard and for so long almost every single night because I couldn't find him. It hurt, but I was not about to give up even though I just knew that I didn't deserve him. I was in a really bad place in my life, and it's not a place that I ever thought that I would ever be. I hated, and I mean I hated myself, I didn't like how I looked and I didn't like me in general.
I was starting to think that mom was wrong about everything when it came to me and Mason, I really did and I was giving up hope a little. I hated myself so bad for being such an ugly horrible person that I seriously thought that the world would be better off without me. And even though I never gave up looking for Mason, I was starting to think that I was never going to find him.
Besides he would be better off without me because he wouldn't have to look at me, and he would never have to worry about me ruining his life like I did the man I hated, the one I was married to.
And after a longer time, I was starting to seriously think that mom was wrong about me having a second chance with Mason, I really was. And for the first time since I started looking for him, I started to give up hope, I started to think that it was never going to happen. There was one good thing that happened since I escaped the order.
And that was that Tim was found hiding in a different state by the US Marshals Fugitive Task Force. And the day he got arrested, he was sent back to the state that he almost killed me in and put in jail and he was served with divorce papers the day he got there. Even though that happened, I still didn't feel any better at all, I was still really really depressed and really sad. I still never so much as wanted to go on a date with any of the boys I knew then, and I didn't like any of them like that at all.
All I knew was that even though I wasn't in the order anymore, I still had standards. I have always been taught that having sex outside of marriage was a huge sin. And all the guys I knew just wanted to have sex with me. And since I didn't, they stopped talking to me and started talking about me behind my back and that just made me feel worse about myself. They always said that I was hot and sexy as fuck, but they never told me that I was beautiful, and they always said that I was a bitch.
I didn't care what they thought, I wasn't going to compromise my values for anyone, especially since I still had a tiny little bit of hope that I would be with Mason again.
I wanted to be clean for him if we ever got back together and I wanted him to be the only one I had sex with after he and I married, maybe even before we got married. He was thee only one I would compromise my values for and that's it. Almost seven months after I escaped the order, I found myself more depressed than I had ever been in my life.
I was so so drunk, oh my god I was drunk. I woke up and called in sick at work, I worked at the mall and after I did that, I spent the whole day feeling sorry for myself.
It got so so bad that I sobbed and sobbed all day long. I hated my life and after a while, I was so so depressed that I decided that I needed to end my life. I was really really drunk but I still knew what I was doing. I went and filled my tub and almost fell a few times before I went to my kitchen and went into my junk drawer. I grabbed my bottle of alcohol after I found a razor blade and went back to the bathroom.
I pulled my long blonde hair back, put it in a bun and turned the bath water off. I started sobbing again and the whole time I sobbed, I thought about Mason. I thought about how happy he made me, how amazing he was to me, how amazingly handsome he was and how he made me feel the whole time we courted before the order took him away from me.
I thought about how the order destroyed me as a person, and how they hid my husband after he killed my baby, and almost killed me.
I thought about how worthless I felt, and how I needed to do Mason and the world a huge favor and kill myself. I was tired of hurting, I was tired of being so so depressed and I was tired of living, I was done. I sobbed so hard that after I got naked, I fell on the floor and sobbed. Then I went to my room and wrote a note to Mason while I sobbed that read: Mason, If you're reading this letter, then I'm already dead.
I want you to know that I'm so sorry for what the order did to you, and I want you to know that I don't blame you at all for what happened, I blame the order cult.
I want you to know that I love you more than anything else in this world. I never stopped loving you and I will always love you. You were the love of my life and you were my everything. I miss you, I miss you so much that it hurts. I want you to be happy, I want you to live an amazing life because you deserve it more than anyone I know. You're an amazing man Mason, and I feel blessed and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world for ever knowing you.
You are and always have been the love of my life and I hope that you will never forget me. I'm writing this to say goodbye, I'm ending all of this, I'm ending the pain that the order caused me when they took you away from me. I just can't do this anymore. I love you forever and always. Kaylee. I walked out to the dining room and put the note on the table and went back in the bathroom, then I got in the tub and called my mom. "Hello, Kaylee?" Mom said while I cried.
"Mom, I can't do it anymore." I said while I sobbed. "Hun, what's wrong baby, talk to me." She said. "I'm done mom, I can't do it anymore, I'm tired." I said. "What are you talking about hun?" Mom asked. "I just wanted to call and say I love you, I love you mom. Thank you, thank you for everything you've done for me." I said. "Kaylee, don't do this honey, please don't do this." Mom pleaded. "Bye mom, I love you." I said before I hung up and dropped my phone in the tub.
I sat there and sobbed so hard that I shook, and it was a long time before I started to do something really really bad. I took another drink of my alcohol and put the bottle down and grabbed the razor blade I had. I sobbed and sobbed while I cut my wrist really really deep, and I cut it several times before I started to cut my other wrist the same way. I watched my cuts open wide and blood start to pour out and I could feel the sting of the razor while I cut myself.
I put the razor down and sunk into my tub while I started to bleed really bad, and that's when I felt a presence in my bathroom. I opened my eyes and it was the cops, they somehow got in my apartment and were standing there. I tried to fight them when they tried to grab me to help me because I wanted to die, I wanted to rid the world of me. I wanted to save Mason the misery that I might have caused him if I found him.
I tried to fight them, but I was too drunk and too weak to even fight them. And the next thing I knew was that the ambulance people and fire fighters came in and wrapped my arms up after they got me out of the tub. They covered me up and they carried me out of the bathroom and put me on a stretcher, and out to the ambulance.
I was way too drunk and weak to fight them too, so I just went with it and that was also when I knew that I really really messed up. I still wanted to die, so it wasn't because I tried to kill myself and it didn't work, it was because I called my mom and she must have called the police or someone who did. When I got to the hospital, I was taken into the emergency room and they started to work on me but I was screaming at them because they wouldn't let me die.
And after a minute or so, I felt a needle get pushed in my arm and that was all I remembered. I was out for the longest time ever, and when I finally woke up I was in my own hospital room.
They had me restrained and everything, and after a while, the doctor came in to my room and started to talk to me. I told her that I wanted to die and that I did want to kill myself, I opened up to her a little but not that much. I just laid there in bed and didn't talk or look at anyone for the rest of that day or the few days after that.
And after a while, the doctor that talked to me told me that they were moving me to another hospital to get some help. I was so depressed that I just didn't care about anything or anyone, I was done with everything, I was done living. I didn't even eat while I was in the hospital because if they weren't going to let me kill myself the way I tried, I was going to starve myself to death.
I wasn't happy about the fact that they were sending me to another hospital at all. They said that they were suppose to have some people there that were suppose to help me through what ever I was going through. The problem was that I didn't want help, I wanted to die so I wouldn't have to hurt anymore, I was tired of the pain that I had been dealing with for so long.
They somehow got me some of my clothes from my house and after a while, they said that my ride to the other hospital was on the way. I got dressed and I seriously thought about ripping my IVs out and running away so I could end everything, but there were too many people around so it wouldn't have worked.
I laid back down on my bed after I put my shoes on and waited for my ride to the next hospital. I planned on talking and acting like I was better so I could get out and go home so I could try again. After almost twenty minutes, I heard the nurses talking to someone and I started to get a little mad because I just had this gut feeling that it was my ride to the other hospital. After a few minutes, I saw this lady walk in that had a uniform on and EMT was on the back of that uniform shirt.
She came into my room and looked at me and smiled. "Hi there. I'm Kendra, what's your name?" She asked. "Kaylee." I said, I won't lie, I was kinda rude about it.
"Well Kaylee, it's nice to meet you, we are going to have the IVs taken out and then we'll be on our way ok?" She asked. "Whatever." I said. Then I looked up to see this really, really tall guy with arms that looked like the person worked out a lot standing in the doorway with his back to me, only his uniform said PARAMEDIC, and under it, it said critical care, only it was in smaller caps.
I heard his voice, it was a very deep manly booming voice but not loud. He had long thick straight hair that went to the middle of his back and it was light brown and I could see red highlights and streaks in it, he had it pulled back in a pony tail and he had it going through the back of the hat he was wearing. I won't lie, I honestly thought he was a girl at first because he had amazingly beautiful hair. Could be anyone, I thought. I was so depressed and mad that it didn't even register at all, but when he turned around and looked at me I saw the look on his face.
He started walking while he stared at me like he knew me mixed with shock and it was starting to make me mad. Then I watched his eyes get a little bigger and it looked like he wanted to cry, it was like he recognized me.
But I didn't recognize him at all and I was on the verge of being way rude to him. I was going to ask him what he was staring at, but before I could say anything he started to talk while he handed a folder to Kendra. "Kaylee?!" He asked while he actually started to cry but he was trying so hard to hide it and it was pretty obvious.
That's when it kinda started to sink in, I started to recognize him but I still wasn't sure who he was because he had a really nice beard and mustache and long hair now, so I just looked away and tried to ignore him.
"It's me Mason McCarthy, are you Kaylee Roberts? We were in the order together and we courted when I was 18." He said while his partner looked at me with a really surprised look and covered her mouth. That's when it hit me so hard that I started crying really hard like, immediately.
It was Mason, my Mason! I covered my mouth and stared at him and I started to sob like crazy because it finally hit me that it was him! I couldn't talk since I was bawling my eyes out, so I nodded my head yes and I got out of my bed and started walking to him.
I held my arms out for him while he almost ran to me and once he got to me, he leaned down and I wrapped my arms around his neck and he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and hugged him really really tight and he was holding me so tight like he didn't want to let me go. I started to sob so so hard and so loud that I knew everyone on that floor could hear me, but I didn't care, I was in Masons arms, I was in his arms again, he found me!
I felt him cradle my head gently and I heard and felt him crying pretty hard too. After a long long time of sobbing in his arms so hard and loud that I was shaking, I lifted my head and put my hands on his face and on his soft beard and looked in his eyes to make sure I wasn't dreaming this time.
And when I did, I saw him crying really hard, and that made me sob even harder. His tears were pouring out of his amazing green eyes, down his cheeks, and into his beard like crazy. "It's really me." He said while I put my thumbs in his tears and looked in his eyes. "It's really you." I said through short huge sobbing gasps. "Yes. It's really me, I can't believe I'm holding you again." He said while he cried like I was.
"I missed you, I missed you so bad." I said quietly through short and sharp sobbing gasps. "I missed you too, you really have no idea." He said before I buried my face in his shoulder and sobbed more.
I couldn't stop sobbing, I was relieved that he was there and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I had somebody and like I wasn't alone. Seeing Mason was the best thing that could have happen to me, and while he held me and cried with me, I couldn't help but think that maybe my mom was right all along, this has to be a sign. After like, forever, I lifted my head and looked in his eyes and he pulled my head against his and looked deep in mine, then we started wiping each other's tears.
"Hi." I said while I cried with a smile. "Hi, oh my god you're so beautiful, damn you're beautiful. I missed you more than you will ever know. I'm here now, I'm here and I will be from now on" He said while he cried with me. "I know, I know you will." I said. "I'm going to put you down and I'm going to take that IV out of your arm, are you ok with that?" He asked making me nod my head yes. "Ok." He said while he walked me to my bed and put me down.
"I'm going to go ahead and pull this." He said while he looked at all of the nurses and wiped his eyes with his arm. I looked at them and saw that they were all crying too, they were in my room the whole time watching us.
Mason already had some blue gloves on, and when he got on his knees, one of the nurses handed him a cotton ball and some wrappy thing while she cried. "Are you ready?" He asked. I nodded my head yes, and when I did, he put the cotton ball on the place that the IV went into my arm and pulled my IV tube out of my arm. "Hold this for me, and make sure you put pressure on it, can you do that for me?" He asked while he looked deep into my eyes like he always did when we were courting. "Yeah." I said while I held the cotton ball.
Then he wrapped that thing around my arm and then he cut it using the scissors he had in his pant leg pocket. "Is it ok if I have a minute with her?" He asked while he looked at the EMT lady and all of the nurses that were crying while they watched us.
"C'mon guys, they need a minute." The EMT lady said. They walked out of my room and closed the door. "Come here." He said while he started crying again. He hugged me tightly and held onto me like I was going to get away. "I've been searching for you, I've been searching for you for a long long time." He whispered after a minute. "I've been looking for you too, I've been looking for you since I escaped the order." I said.
"I guess the search is finally over now isn't it?" He asked while he backed off and looked in my eyes. "Can I just go home with you?" I asked. "Oh my god Kaylee you have no idea how bad I want to take you home, but this is all out of my hands. I can't even though I want to. But if you're willing, and only if you're willing, I'd like for you to come and stay with me when you get out of the hospital." He said.
"I wanna go home with you now." I said while we both cried. "I know baby, I know you do and I want to take you home with me right now, but you need to go heal first. And don't you worry, I am going fight this with you, I'm here now and I will stand right by your side and help you through this, I'm not going anywhere and now that we've finally found each other, I am not going to leave you again, I promise you that right here and now." He said making me cry harder.
"You don't know how bad I needed to hear you say that." I said while I started sobbing again. "Baby look at me, look at me." He said making me look in his eyes. "I mean it, I mean it Kaylee, we need each other right now, so please let me take you to the hospital so you can start healing.
You'll be in the hospital I know, but I'm still going to be here with you all the way through this, I'm not going anywhere." He said. "Ok, I'll do it." I said while I held his face and looked in his eyes. "Thank you, I can't loose you again Kaylee, I don't think I'll be able to live anymore if I do." He said while he cried really hard. "I never stopped loving you." I said while I sobbed.
"Look at me baby, look at me." He said while he lifted my head by my chin making me look into his amazing eyes. "I never stopped loving you either Kaylee. You were my first love, you were my everything, you were my life and they ripped me away from you. My life has never been the same since." He said while he cried really hard. "Oh my god I missed you." I said through sharp and short sobbing gasps.
"I've missed you so bad." He said while he held me and we both sobbed. After a long long time, we let go of each other and he looked in my eyes. "For the record, no I'm not married and no I do not have a girlfriend." He said while that smile I fell in love with started to form on those lips I use to kiss all the time when I was 14. "That's the best news ever." I said while I smiled. "Please tell me you're single." He said.
"I am, I'm divorced and I have no boyfriend." I said while I smiled. "Oh thank god." He said making me smile bigger. "Goddamn you're so so beautiful, good god." He said making me feel all warm. "You grew your hair out and grew a beard." I said while I smiled. "Yeah, I'm trying to look ugly so girls will leave me alone, I'm trying to look homeless." He said making me laugh for the first time in months. "How's that working out for you?" I asked while I laughed.
"Not all that good unfortunately, it's pissing me off." He said while we both laughed and he stood up. "It because you look way way wwwaaay hotter like that like, damn." I said making him blush and smile. "You think so?" He asked with his amazing smile. "Yes, I mean, you've always been the cutest and most handsome boy I've ever known, but now you're just sexy. If you wanted to look homeless and ugly, you probably shouldn't have been working out like you obviously still do, and you shouldn't be taking care of your hair and keeping your beard trimmed.
You don't look homeless at all, you look really really really hot." I said before I could stop myself. "Ok then, I guess we don't have to worry about wether or not you're attracted to me still." He said with that amazing smile I missed so much. "Oh god no, you look amazing." I said while he walked to me and got back on his knees. "You were and are by far the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life and the amazing part of that is that you have gotten even more beautiful than you ever were.
You're all tanned up now, wow you look amazing." He said making me start swooning for him again. "Thank you." I said. "I mean it." He said. "I know you do because I can feel it when you tell me." I said. "I hope so." He said. "Thank you for saving my life." I said. "You're welcome." He said. "Oh my god I'm so so glad you're the one taking me to that hospital." I said.
"I was not expecting my patient transfer to be you at all." He said. "Mom was definitely right." I said. "Well, we have to get going so tell me about that on the way ok?" He asked. "Ok." I said. "You still have that amazing long ass blonde hair, oh my god you're so beautiful." He said while he brushed my hair out of my eyes and caressed my face while I giggled and smiled, he was making me feel really really good.
"My hair is longer than yours." I said while I giggled and looked at him while I touched his face. "Yeah, it is but that's ok, we need people to be able to tell which one of us is the girl am I right?" He asked making me laugh again.
"How can they not tell? You're like way way tall and you obviously work out all the time cause you look like this, it's kinda easy to see that you're a man." I said. "Well, I guess there is that, that and there aren't many women with beards and mustaches like mine, at least not that I'm aware of." He said making me giggle. "I love your beard and mustache, and I love your hair, you look really really really really good." I said.
"Thank you." He said with that smile while he stood up. I took his hand while he looked so deep in my eyes that I could feel his energy again, I don't think you'll ever understand what that did to me.
I couldn't believe that I was smiling again! I felt amazing, but he was right, I needed to get better and I needed to heal from all of the hurt and pain I went through for so long. He held my hand while he went and opened the door to my room, and when he did that, I saw all the nurses and the EMT lady, they all were still crying. "Oh my god! She's smiling!" One of the nurses said.
"You have a beautiful smile Kaylee." One said. "Thank you." I said. "You did for her in twenty minutes what we've been trying to do for several days." Another nurse said while she looked at Mason. "Well, I can't take all the credit, she deserves a lot of it too." He said. "Is it ok if we hug you Kaylee?" Another one asked. "Yeah." I said while they all started to hug me. "I'm sorry I was so rude and mean to you guys, I'm really sorry." I said while I started crying again. "Hey hey hey hey, it's ok, don't apologize it's ok." One of the nurses said.
"You are in amazing amazing hands with this guy here." One of the nurses said. "I know I am." I said. "This is the girl I've been telling you all about for hell, a long time." Mason said. "Yeah, we kinda figured that out already and you're right, she is really beautiful, especially when she smiles." One of the nurses said, she looked right at me when she said "when she smiles". "He's talked about me?" I asked with the biggest smile since before he got taken away from me. "You're glowing, aaaawwwww!" One of the nurses kinda squealed and started hopping up and down and clapping her hands.
"Yes he has, he's been looking for you for a long long time." The EMT lady said at the same time. "Kaylee, this is my partner Kendra, you've already met." Mason said while she walked up to me. "I'm going to hug you, is that ok?" She asked.
"Yes that's fine." I said before she hugged me. "It's really really nice to meet you, I've heard so much about you that I feel like I know you." She said making me start crying because I realized that Mason must have talked about me all the time, it made me feel like he still loved me.
"It's nice to meet you too." I said. "Don't worry, he'll take good care of you." She said. "I know." I said. "I'll drive Mason, you can ride in the back for this one." She said. "Thank you, we should get going." He said. "Can I just walk out?" I asked. "You can if you want, but it'll be easier if you ride on the cot, it's up to you." He said.
"I'll ride on that." I said while I pointed at the cot. He took my hand and led me to the cot, I had no idea that that's what they called it, and lowered it for me so I could sit on it.
"Put your booty right here, and put your feet that way." Kendra said before I sat down and laid back. "Hey Mason, congratulations on your masters, When are you going to come work here full time?" A nurse asked. "We've been over this Jacquelyn, I love it out in the streets." Mason said, but he said her name funny, like jay-quell-Lynn or something like that. "Well, it's just a thought, you'de be a really good nurse." She said. "I, I am a nurse." He said sarcastically.
"Well I know that, you know what I mean smart ass." She said. "He just got his masters in nursing science Jacquelyn, so he's right, he kinda is a nurse." A nurse said while everyone laughed at her. "Where the hell have you been?" Another nurse asked while she laughed.
"You were in my study group for god sakes!" Mason said at the same time as everyone else was talking. "Leave me alone!" Jacquelyn said while she and everyone laughed. "Thank you for taking care of her ladies, I really really appreciate it." Mason said while he started to cry a little. "You're welcome, oh shit, we forgot to change her dressing." A nurse said. "We gotta do that before you guys leave." Jacquelyn said.
"I'll do it guys, no worries, I'll do it on the rig." Mason said. "Are you sure?" They asked. "Yes I'm sure, no worries." He said. "Ok, Kaylee, I'm serious when I say this.
Best of luck to you, I really hope you get what you need and that you get better, you're beautiful, oh my god you're beautiful." A nurse said. "Thank you." I said while she walked up to me. "One more thing." She said while she leaned down and held her hand up and touched my head with the side of it and got really really close. "He is still madly in love with you." She whispered.
"He is?" I whispered in her ear after I motioned for her to get close. "Let me put it this way, his fiancé was going to call their engagement off before she died." She whispered in my ear. "Why? I whispered in her ear.
"Because she couldn't compete with you, you had his heart and she knew it from the very beginning. He always talked about you and he was searching for you the whole time they were together." She whispered in my ear. After she told me that I couldn't help but smile so big it hurt, it had been so long since I smiled like that and it felt so so good. "I'm still madly in love with him and I've been looking for him too." I whispered in her ear.
"That's so amazing." She said before she leaned down and hugged me. "You can't say a word about this conversation to him or anyone at all." She whispered in my ear. "I won't." I said while she stood up. "Pinkie promise?" She asked while she held her pinkie out for me. "Pinkie promise." I said while I hooked my pinkie with hers. I looked over and saw Mason surrounded by nurses and his partner and they all were pretending to tell secrets like the nurse and I were. "What are you guys being so secretive about?" The nurse asked.
"What, no, no secrets, we have no idea what you're talking about." Mason stammered jokingly. "Nope, you're just seeing things." Kendra said while she nodded her head no. "You guys were whispering and looking at us." The nurse said. "No, no we weren't I swear." Mason said making me laugh. "Look who's talking." Jacquelyn said at the same time. "You're laughing!" One of the other nurses said while she looked at me.
The nurses all came up to me and gave me a hug and told me to get better while Kendra put some seat belts on me, but when the nurse that told me that Mason was still in love with me hugged me again, she whispered in my ear again. "Get better so you two can be together like I'm convinced you're suppose to be." She said.
"Thank you." I said. "Alright guys, we'll see you all later." Mason said while he lifted the cot by pushing a button or something, it was an electric cot. "Bye Kaylee!" They all said while Mason and Kendra took me to an elevator.
I couldn't help but watch Mason, he's way beyond handsome now, I thought while I watched his long hair move. Once we got outside I watched Mason take his shades off of his head, or hat and put them on.
"I'm such a baller." He said out of nowhere while he put his shades on making me and Kendra laugh pretty hard. "Well that was random." Kendra said while we laughed. They got me in the ambulance and Mason got in the back with me before Kendra went up to the front. "Ok, let's go ahead and get these dressings changed." He said while he stood up as best as he could, he was tall as hell remember, to get some bandages and stuff.
I couldn't help but sit there and admire the man that he had become, he wasn't just a boy anymore, he was an incredibly handsome handsome man. He looked so so amazing that it wasn't funny! Think of all the really hot famous guys that all girls like, like Chris Hemsworth and other guys like him that make all of the girls drool and stare, yeah, that's how amazing Mason looked!
I was still beside myself and shocked that he was actually with me in the ambulance. Like I said, I didn't want to live, I wanted to die and I planned on killing myself once I got out of the hospital, only I wasn't going to call anyone at all, I was just going to let someone find me dead. But after he came to my room and hugged me, cried with me the way he did and said that he never stopped loving me, I don't know.
All I knew was that I really felt how much he really loved me, I knew that he cared about me more than anything else. Do you remember when I said that if I could just see him and be in his arms again that my life would get better? Well, it happened. I was happy, I was excited, and I felt like I belonged.
I didn't remember the last time I smiled and laughed as much as I did that day, I didn't. I went from hating everything about myself and hating my life so bad that I was determined to end my life. I went from being rude, horrible, depressed and sad to sobbing so hard in Masons arms that I just knew that everyone on my floor could hear me, to smiling and laughing.
It's like, I don't know, it's like I hit rock bottom and when I did I hit so hard that I bounced off of the bottom. Then right when I started to fall back to the bottom again, Mason reached down, grabbed my arm and pulled me out, then he held me so tight that I almost couldn't breath and he cried and sobbed for me for so long. I changed my mind right then and there, I didn't want to die anymore, but what helped me make that my final decision was what that nurse told me.
And believe me, I still felt that way about him, only I was like, way way way way way way (and on and on) more attracted to him because he was so so much better looking than he was when he was in the order with me, and he was the cutest boy in the world to me then.
I sat there and watched him cut my bandages off and when he saw the stitches in my wrist, he started to cry again but I could tell he was trying to hide it. "Why are you crying?" I asked after I sat up and put my hand on his face touching his soft beard while I did.
"Because." He said before he started to break down. "Because why?" I asked while he put some kind of Neosporin type stuff on my still fresh wound and hundreds of stitches. "I'm not sure why." He said while his voice broke up. "Tell me please." I said while I lifted his head to look in his eyes. "I feel responsible for this." He struggled to say making me start crying.
"Look at me Mason, look at me." I said. "How are you responsible for this?" I asked. "I fucked up." He said while we cried. "How, how did you mess up?" I asked. "I got kicked out of the order Kaylee, I did something bad and it got me kicked out of the order.
And because of that, they tore us apart, then your ex husband almost kills you and now you're here with this." He struggled to say. "Baby look at me" I said making him look in my eyes again. "This isn't your fault, it isn't. I don't blame you at all." I said. "Yeah it kind of is Kaylee, you never would have gone through what you did if I didn't fuck up as bad as I did, you wouldn't be here in my rig like this.
I hurt the one girl that I loved more than life itself and you don't put the one you love through this, you don't." He struggled to say while he looked down again. "You can't blame yourself, you can't because this isn't your fault." I said while I cried. "You're five years too late for that." He said. "Listen to me carefully babe, look at me." I said making him look in my eyes. "I do not blame you at all, get that through your head please baby. I blame the order, I blame the highers and I blame your step dad, I blame my dad.
It's their fault and its my soon to be ex husbands fault. They are the ones I blame Mason, not you." I said. "That helps a little, thank you." He said before he hugged me. I held him for a minute before we let go of each other and he finished my one arm and started to do the other one. "Thank you." I said when he got done. "You're welcome." He said.
"Um, is it ok if I call my mom?" I asked. "You're still talking to her?" He asked. "Yeah I am, she helped get me out of the order." I said. "Your mom helped you get out?!" He asked with a look of surprise on his face. "Yep. Tim beat me up so bad that he almost killed me and after I got out of the hospital, mom made a few phone calls and helped me escape." I said.
"How long after you got out did you escape?" He asked. "Four months." I said. "Have you been up here this whole time?" He asked. "Yeah I have." I said. "Wait, so I've been searching everywhere for you and you've been here for the last six or seven months? He asked. "Yep, I didn't know you were here either." I said. "Like I said, our search is over, do you have your phone with you?" He asked.
"No, I don't have one anymore. I kinda ruined it when I did this." I said. "Well here, use this." He said while he took his phone out of his pocket and his Bluetooth out of his ear and handed them to me. "I promise that I cleaned my ears out this morning so there's no wax in that." He said making me giggle.
"Thank you." I said while I put his Bluetooth in my ear and took his phone. I tapped the button to bring his screen up and saw his lock screen picture, it was of me and I was looking at him with the biggest smile. Then I unlocked his phone after he gave me the code, and when I saw his home screen picture, I almost started to cry, it was a selfie that he took of us, I remembered when he took those pictures, it was back when we were courting.
He does still love me, I thought while I looked at him with a huge smile and watery eyes. "Sorry about that, I can't seem to get myself to delete those." He said. "Don't be sorry, I had these same pictures as my home screen picture too." I said. "You don't think I'm creepy for keeping those do you?" He asked with a little hint of fear in his eyes. "Really Mason? You honestly think you could ever give me the creeps?" I asked sarcastically with a smile.
"Maybe." He said with a little smirk. "Well you can't, I think it's really sweet that you still have these, I love that you still have them." I said. Oh my god I almost told him that I was still in love with him because like, I really was, and laying in that ambulance looking at him really started to bring all of my feelings I had for him back like, really bad. It didn't help that he was looking at me the way he always use to when we were courting.
I had to shake it off so that I could concentrate on calling mom to let her know that I was ok. So I dialed my moms number and waited while it started to ring. "Hello?" Mom asked after the third or fourth ring, she sounded really bad.
"Mom it's me." I said while I started crying. "Kaylee?" She asked. "Yes mom." I said while she started crying. "Oh my god Kaylee, you're alive, are you ok?" She said while she cried harder. "I am now, I feel better." I said. "Are you still in the hospital?" She asked. "I'm being moved to another one right now." I said. "They said you cut your wrists." She said while she cried. "I'm sorry mom, I'm so sorry." I said while I started to cry.
"Baby listen to me, it's ok, it's ok I'm not mad. I'm worried sick about you. I know you've been through hell and I understand that you felt that suicide was the only way out, I get it, but it's not Kaylee, you have to be strong and find a way to get through it. I thought I lost you, you don't know how much it hurt me to think that I may have lost my baby girl." Mom said while she cried.
"I know and I'm so so sorry mom." I said. "Stop apologizing hun please, it's not your fault, non of this is your fault." She said trying to make me feel better. "Yes it is mom, I tried to kill myself." I said. "No baby, listen to me, I understand that you tried to kill yourself and I get why. You went through hell baby, you have never been the same since the highers took Tree away from you. You still hurt from that and you hurt from what Tim did to you and now you're in a whole new world." Mom said.
"I wanted to die mom, I wanted to die so I wouldn't hurt anymore." I said. "And I understand that baby, trust me I do. Did you try getting some help?" She asked. "I didn't have anyone." I said. "But you have me, you have me." She said while she cried.
"I know mom, I just didn't think about that at the time, and I'm sorry." I said. "I just thank god that you're alive and that you're ok, I'm so so relieved." She said after we sat there crying for a minute or so. "Well, I just want you to know that I don't wanna die anymore, I want to live and I want to heal and get better, so I'm going to the hospital now and I'll be there for ninety days." I said.
"What are you going to do after that?" She asked. "I don't know yet, all I know is that I'm going to do what I have to do to get better." I said. "Promise me you won't try something like that again." She said. "I promise mom, I promise." I said. "Promise me that you'll call me the next time you feel like you want to kill yourself, promise me." She said.
"I promise mom." I said. "Promise me that you'll do everything you can to not do that again, that you'll call me if you ever get that depressed again." She said. "I promise I'll call you if I feel like that again." I said. "You don't understand how good it is to hear you right now, I was going to come to see you at the hospital but your dad wouldn't let me, plus he moved your siblings and me to a smaller house because you left so I was moving." She said. "I'm so sorry about that." I said.
"No, don't you dare apologize for that Kaylee, don't you dare. You needed to get out of the order and hide because it's dangerous for you, and I don't want you to live this life. They've been looking for you. They want you to be Tims brothers third wife since Tim is in jail right now. I refuse to tell them where you are because I want to protect you and keep you away from these people and if that means that I live in a smaller house then so be it." She said.
"It's not easy out here mom, it's so much harder than I ever thought it would be." I said. "You need to find Tree baby, you need to find him." Mom said. "I've been trying to find him mom, I need him and I ran out of ways to look for him." I said.
"He's a paramedic hun, if you have to, go to all of the places that have ambulance services and ask them if they have a Mason McCarthy working for them." Mom said. "Ok I'll do that." I said while I smiled and looked at Mason who was doing some work on a computer. "I'm serious, now I don't know why and I don't know how you'll feel about this Kaylee, but I feel like you really need to hurry up and find him as soon as you can. I have dreams about it all of the time and every time I dream about it it's different.
The order wants you back, they want you to remarry in the order and they want you bad so they've been looking for you. I don't think you'll be able to have much control over wether or not you come back if they find you. I feel like you need to find Tree and be with him wether or not you guys court again, he's your protector Kaylee, I don't know how, but I know that he is your protector and that the order won't stand much of a chance if you're with him.
They're scared to death of him, they actually fear him, so you need to find him and you need to do it fast. It's not going to be long until they find you because they're close to finding you now.
They know what city you're in." Mom said making me a little scared. "Mom." I said while Mason looked at me and smiled. "You don't want to come back to the order do you, please tell me you don't want to come back." Mom said.
"No I don't want to come back, I would rather die than come back. They ruined my life mom, they took Mason away from me and ruined my life, I wouldn't be in this ambulance and I would be the happiest girl in the world if they didn't do all of that." I said. "You were happiest when you were courting him, we were planning your marriage and everything." Mom said. "I know, and when they took him away from me everything went really bad and they've just gotten worse, but I ha." I said while mom interrupted me.
"Then you need to find him and you need to find him now, I mean it." Mom said forcefully. "Mom, he has been looking for me too, he's been searching for me." I said making my Mason look at me and smile. "What? How do you know?" She asked. "The nurses at the last hospital I was in know him really good. I kinda asked them if they knew Mason, and this one nurse named Jacquelyn said that he was in her study group at her school. I asked if she had seen him and she said not since they graduated with their masters in nursing science, she knew him, all of the nurses did." I said, yeah I kinda lied about that because I was trying to lead her on before I broke the news to her.
"Well did you ask for his for his number, something?!" Mom asked. "No I didn't becaus." I said while she interrupted me. "Ooooohhh Kaylee, why?! You were so close!" Mom growled. "Mom." I said trying to get a word in. "Kaylee, you were so so close and now you have to start over now! When you get out of the hospital I want you to go back to that one and find that nurse and see if you can talk to her, you need to find him fast because it's only a matter of time before the order finds you." Mom said.
"Mom, mom stop, I was just kidding, the paramedic that came to get me and take me to the other hospital is Mason." I said making her gasp.
"What?!" She asked after a few seconds of silence. "Mason is my paramedic, they sent his ambulance to come and take me to the other hospital." I said, it got quiet after that. "Hi mom, don't worry, I'll take good care of her I promise." Mason yelled so mom could hear him. "Mom?" I asked. "Was that really him? She asked sounding like she was starting to get excited.
"Yes that was really him mom, he's sitting right here, I'm looking right at him." I said while she started to get really really excited. "Can you hold on a second?" She asked. "Yeah." I said before I heard her put her phone down and start screaming like she won the lottery or something. "Ok, I feel better now." She said after a few minutes.
"Are you ok?" I asked. "Im so glad you found each other." She said. "He's been looking for me mom, he told me that he'd been looking for me for a long time." I said. "Well, the search is over now, please stay by him and let him protect you, he's your protector, I don't know how I know that but I just do." Mom said. "I know mom, I think he does too." I said while my Mason looked at me with his amazing smile.
"How does he look?" She asked. "Way better than he did when we were courting." I said. "How is that even possible?
He was the best looking guy in the whole order." Mom said. "I know right?" I asked. "So what's changed?" Mom asked. "He has a beard now and he has really long hair, I think I actually like his hair better than I like mine." I said making Mason flip his hair around making me laugh kinda hard.
"He has long hair now? Oh my god it's so good to hear you laugh, why are you laughing?" Mom asked. "He's flipping his hair around." I said while he and I laughed. "I can hear him laughing, oh my god this is so exciting! So how does he look with long hair?" Mom asked. "He looks really really good like, oh my damn, and that beard and mustache, yeah, he looks amazing." I said.
"He's right there, he can probably hear you hun." Mom said.
"I already told him that he looks really good so it's not like he hasn't heard me say it already." I said. "Oh my god you have no idea how relieved I am right now. So is this your new phone number now or what?" Mom asked. "No, it's his phone, mine is ruined." I said. "Awesome! I have his number now, well, I'm going to let you go now so you guys can talk, but let him know that I need to talk to him and that I'll be calling him." She said.
"Ok I will mom." I said. "I love you kiddo." Mom said. "Love you too mom." I said. We said our good byes and gave Mason his Bluetooth back. "My mom absolutely loves you." I said with the biggest smile. "She does?" He asked. "Oh you have no idea Mason, when I told her that you were my paramedic you would have thought she won the lottery." I said. "I knew she liked me but I didn't think she loved me, that makes me feel good." He said.
"She says that she wants to talk to you really bad so you'll be getting a call from her." I said. "Ok that's fine. So you said that your phone is ruined?" He asked. "Yeah, I dropped it in the tub." I said. "So you don't have a phone at all right now?" He asked. "No." I said. "So we are going to go ahead and replace your phone, so what I need from you is your information and stuff so I can go get that taken care of while you're in the hospital." He said.
"Mason no, I." I said while he interrupted me. "Listen to me for a second. I know that we both grew up in the order and that men have the final say in everything and all, I really do.
I really really don't want you to think I'm like that at all because I'm not, but I need to do this. We've spent god knows how long looking for each other and you're right here and now that you're finally here with me, I really don't want to loose you again. I don't think you'll ever understand how bad I do not want to loose you again. So please I'm begging you to let me do this, please." He said.
"Are you sure?" I asked. "Don't make me get on my knees and beg because I will." He said. "Mason, it's not your responsibility, it's my phone I should have to do that." I said while he put his computer down, undid his seat belt, and looked in my eyes.
"You're really going to make me do this aren't you? He asked while he got on one of his knees and took my hand. "Mason, you really don't have to do this, really." I said. "I know I don't have to do this, but let me put it this way.
It's not a matter of want, it's a matter of need, I need to do this. I lost you once and my life hasn't been the same since. I really don't want to loose you again, I can't. That means I want to be able to call and text you while you're in the hospital so we never loose touch again, I won't be able to keep living if I loose you again. So I'm begging you, please baby, please let me do this." He said. I sat there and thought about it and looked at him.
He called me baby again, and hearing him call me baby like that made me so so weak, I couldn't say no after that. "Not trying to rush you but this floor is hard and uncomfortable and it's starting to hurt a little, especially when she keeps hitting all of these bumps." He said making me laugh. "I don't know why but I can't say no to you." I said.
"So is that a yes?" He asked. "Ok, I'll let you do it this time." I said with a smile.
"Thank you." He said while he got off of the floor and hugged me. "Thank you." I said. "So you can't say no to me huh?" He asked while let go of me, sat back in his seat and looked deep in my eyes. "No, I can't, you're way too hot." I said making sparks fly between us. "Thank you." He said while his face turned red.
"It's true, you look really really good." I said. "So do you, you still look amazingly beautiful, I can't believe that you look as amazing as you do." He said making me feel weak and my heart beat faster.
"Thanks. So do you think there would ever be a chance that we could ever get back to where we were before you were taken away from me?" I asked. "Do you mean us courting again?" He asked. "Yeah." I replied.
"I'd say that there is about a one hundred percent if not higher chance of us getting back together. Like I said Kaylee, I never stopped loving you. You were my first love and I never got over loosing you the way I did. When I was thrown out here on my own, I had thee worst time getting over loosing you and I even stayed busy, and I still couldn't get over loosing you.
I was engaged to be married a couple of years ago, but I still loved you. I was searching for you like crazy before I got engaged and I never stopped looking, I wanted to find you." He said. "What would you have done if you found me while you were engaged?" I asked. "That depends, if you were married then I would say hi and I'd be your friend and I would probably end up getting married to a woman that I didn't love nearly as much as I loved you.
I would just be settling it's that simple. I know that sounds really really bad and it is a pretty big dick thing to say, but honest to god that's how it would be." He said making me feel all warm like he use to all the time. "What if I was single and you found me and I like, wanted to be with you while you were engaged?" I asked. "I would have called the engagement off and broke up with her so I could be with you." He said without even skipping a beat. "Oh my god, you really loved me didn't you?" I asked while my eyes started to water.
"Yes I did, I still do." He said. "You still love me that much?" I asked. "We had a really, really bad call before we were sent to transfer you and it was one of those calls that really stick with you and haunts you. When I got to that hospital and saw that you were my patient, I completely forgot about that call, it was as though, I don't even know what to say Kaylee. I looked at you and my dark world lit up, like someone literally flipped a switch and everything just became bright, I don't know how else to explain it.
I hated that you were there and that I have to take you to this other hospital, but at the same time, it made my whole year to see you and to hold you again. So in answer to your question when you asked if I still love you like I use to, yes I do, like I said, I never stopped loving you." He said making me cry. "I still love you that much too, that's why I never gave up looking for you." I said.
"Ok, so when you get out, let's get you better, I wanna court you again. We'll take it as slow as you need so we don't need to rush it.
If you don't want to start courting me right away, that's fine, I'll wait for as long as I have to. As long as I have you back in my life, I'll be the happiest man you'll ever know." He said while I cried. "You're so amazing, oh my god you're so so amazing and so good to me." I said while he hugged me. "You're amazing too, that's why I never stopped looking for you." He said.
"Listen, I was sure that I didn't want to court anyone at all just yet, but now I don't know. I wanna be with you so bad so trust me, we will be together like we were before, I promise." I said. "You just made my day even better." He said while he put his head on mine and looked in my eyes. "You made my life better." I said. "And it's only going to get better from here, I promise you that I'll do everything I can to make it better." He said. "You're off to a really really good start." I said while he backed off and sat back in his seat.
You have absolutely no clue how badly I wanted to kiss him right there, OH MY GOD! "Good, I would have kissed you but I don't want to push you away." He said making me scream in my head. "I don't wanna ruin this either." I said trying to hide the fact that I wanted him to kiss me so bad that it was crazy! "Mom was right." I said. "About what?" He asked. "About us." I said.
"What did, wait I have an idea." He said. "What?" I asked. "I can tell that you want to tell me what she said, but, I think you should tell me when I come pick you up from the hospital, when you're done." He said. "Ok, sounds good." I said. I loved that he was doing everything he could and coming up with any excuse to see me again, it seemed like he really was fighting to make sure he didn't loose me again. You have no idea how amazing he was making me feel because of that.
"You know what? We should take some pics together and send them to your mom so she can see that you're really with me." He said. "But I don't have make up on." I said. "You don't need make up, you're so beautiful without it." He said. "But why?" I asked. "Well I gave one reason already, but the other reason is because I need to update my lock and home screen." He said with a smile.
"Ok." I said. He took his phone out and put his face next to mine and started taking pictures. "Wait, I want her to see your hair." I said while I reached up and pulled his long pony tail over his shoulder so she could see how awesome and beautiful his hair was, it was really soft and silky! He took more pics that showed his hair and a few more. The picture I liked the most was the one where he actually kissed my cheek while I made a pouty face with my eyes closed like I was getting ready to kiss his soft lips.
After that he gave me his phone and I started to send them to my mom so she could see how amazingly handsome he was now. Mom: aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwww!!
Tree, you two look so adorable together!! Me: I have his phone and, I know right??!! Mom: he looks incredible!! You do all you can to behave yourself! Me: I don't know mom, u see how good he looks now, it's going to be a lot easier to say it than to do it!
Mom: wow, he is so so handsome!! You're one very lucky girl!! Me: oh I know, trust me! What do u think about his hair? Mom: it's beautiful, that's weird saying that about a man, but it is!
Me: he is ssssoooooooo so hot now, my god!!
Mom: I am so ridiculously and stupidly happy for u!!!!!!! Me: thank u! Mom: give him a big hug for me and tell him I said thank you! Me: I will, luv u mom! Mom: love you too baby girl!
Go get better then court that man! Me: trust me, I am. Mom: getting better or courting him Me: yes. Mom: good!!! I'm so happy that I'm crying, I have to get back to work, by sweetheart! Me: love u Mom: love you too! Me and Mason started to talk about the memories that we made together as a couple, and everything we did that we would have gotten into so much trouble if we ever got caught, like making out and stuff, I always made him touch my boobs when we made out.
I loved it when he did that and I loved that he loved them. "Five minutes out!" Kendra yelled. "Got it, five out thank you!" Mason yelled.
"I can't wait to get out." I said. "Why?" He asked. "Because, I get to be with you again." I said with the biggest smile. "I just wanted to hear you say that." He said while he smiled. "Oh shit, I need your info so I can go pick your new phone up." He said. "Oh yeah, I totally forgot about that." I said. "Is it ok if I call them and set it up?" I asked. "Perfectly." He said. "Thanks." I said. I called them and told them that my phone was ruined and ordered a new one.
I gave them Masons information and told them that he would be picking it up for me. After that I deleted the conversation that I had with mom so he wouldn't get freaked out, but then I remembered that he said that he was still in love with me and that he wanted to court me again, so I got a little mad at myself for doing that.
But when I gave his phone back to him and saw how he was looking at me, I felt way better and I couldn't stop smiling. I couldn't believe that it was only an hour that he and I reunited because all of the feelings I had for him when we were courting were all back! All of them! That and I felt a million times better than I did before he got to the other hospital. I couldn't believe that I felt as good as I did, all of the pain I felt since the day he got taken away from me was almost all the way gone.
I actually didn't feel the pain at all, I still needed to get help though because I needed help through all of the pain that Tim and the order caused me, I still needed to heal. But now, I had a reason to fight, I had a reason to push on and get better, I had a reason to live and his name was Mason! I was more determined than ever to get better because he made me realize that I was wanted and that I was loved. I still felt like I didn't deserve him, but it was obvious to me that he thought that I did deserve him and that I deserved to be happy and to live!
I never expected to be so far in just an hour of being with him, but I was. He really really pulled me out of my hole like, big time! "We're here!" Kendra yelled. "Ok." Mason yelled. "Ok, so here is what we are going to do." He said while he took his hat off. "You're going to hold onto this for me and I'll take it back when you come back to me." He said. "Ok." I said while he put it on my head. "Wait, that's way too big, hold on." He said making me laugh. He took it off and fixed it and put it back on my head.
"Are you ready?" He asked. "Yes." I replied.
"That's a different answer than you gave the doctor." He said with a smile while the ambulance stopped. "Yeah, you changed my mind." I said. "Score one for me." He said with that smile while Kendra opened the back doors. They took me out of the ambulance and into the hospital. Once they got me to a different floor, they undid my seat belts while the doctors came in to meet me. That's when Kendra hugged me.
"I've never seen him like this, you are so good for him." She whispered in my ear. "Thank you." I said. "I mean it, and you're welcome." She said. Then I walked up to Mason and gave him a really long hug. "I'll see you when I get out." I said. "Yes you will, you'll see me even before that. Do you need me to get some of your clothes for when I bring your phone to you?" He asked. "Can you bring me some sweats and I'll need some underwear." I said.
"Yes I can." I said. "Thank you baby." I said. "Now that I have you back I can shave and cut my hair." He said. "Oh no please don't do that, please?" I pleaded. "You don't want me to?" He asked. "No I don't. I love love love your new look." I said. "Good because I'm a little attached to my hair and beard anyway." He said. "Good. Thank you for everything today." I said.
"You're welcome, and hey." He said while he lifted my head by my chin. "Get better and come back to me, I need you." He said. "I will I promise, because I need you too." I said. Oh my god I was on top of the world again!! He was so so amazing to me! I don't think it even mattered to him that I tried to kill myself at all, he cared, but it was like he still loved me even though I did that.
He moved the hat that he put on my head and kissed my head before I watched him and his partner give some paper work to the doctors and leave. He looked back at me and waved while he walked out and the doctors let me watch him. After he was gone, I was taken to my room there, and after that someone came and got me and took me to the doctors office and I ended up telling him everything I could in the time I had.
That's when I was given some kind of itinerary that had a whole bunch of group therapy sessions and everything on it. And so the healing process began, but what they didn't know, was that my healing process started the minute Mason came back into my life the way he did. They took me back to my room and I had my first group therapy session that evening. I wanted to talk about everything I went through but I didn't know any of the girls that were in there with me so I just sat there and listened at first.
Then I introduced myself and they started to ask me about how I tried to kill myself. I told them the truth, and before I knew it, they all had me pouring my heart out. I told them about when all of the pain started to for me, when my Mason was taken away from me. I could not stop talking about him and how amazing he was, and how he was unlike any of the boys and men that we both grew up with.
After a few minutes, they really started to see and feel how much I still loved him because they could see where all of my hurt started. At first they said that I should be mad at him, that if he left me the way he did before that he would do it again, that's until I told them what he did. I told them that he was kicked out of his house for beating his step dad up because he was hurting his mom and sisters.
I was crying when I told them how him getting kicked out of his house and taken from me sent my life into a spin and how it ruined me. After that session, they all met me in the room where the tv and stuff was, and they started asking me all about Mason, even when we were eating we all talked about him and how amazing he was. I made a few friends that night, which was good because I didn't feel like I was alone there anymore.
That night I went to bed and thought about Mason while I laid there, I could not believe how amazing he looked! I know I had my values and all, but like, I wasn't sure that I was going to be able to wait till we got married to have sex with him, he was that hot now like, oh my god! It didn't really help that he and I confessed that we were still in love with each other after so many years of being apart, so between that and how he looked now, it was making me feel all tingly and horny for him.
But it was really weird cause like, I've been horny before because I was married. But for some reason it was like I was like, hyper horny thinking about him. It was way beyond any kind of horny that I've ever felt in my life, and it was really really bad! While I thought about his face and how he looked with that beard and long hair, and how he looked at me and how he made me feel when I was on his ambulance, it started to get a lot worse, a lot lot worse.
It got so bad that I was laying on my side and had my legs pressed together really really tight, and I was squirming really bad. Oh my god I can't believe how amazingly handsome and sexy he looks now, I thought while I rolled on my back. Before I knew it I was pressing my legs together so tight and moving my hips and when I did that, I was amazed at how good it felt.
I kinda gasped because this amazing feeling shot from my vagina all the way through my body, it felt that amazing. While I kept moving around and moving my legs together, it started to feel all squishy because I was getting really really really wet. It was like I squeezed a whole bunch of lube on myself like I always had to do with my ex, only I didn't use any lube at all. And the more I thought about Mason and moved like I was, the worse it got. "Oh my god." I whispered while I moved around and started to writhe.
I wanted to see how wet I was, so I spread my legs and sat up, and when I did I kinda giggled because I noticed that I was leaking through my pants. When I touched myself through my pants, oh.my.god! It was like this, I don't even know, all I know was that it felt way way way better than when I had sex with my ex husband, especially since I kept thinking about Mason.
I looked down and started to rub myself slowly and moved my hips like I wasn't allowed to when I was married. I laid back and grabbed one of my boobs and started to fantasize about him. In my fantasy, he laid next to me on the ambulance and started to kiss and make out with me.
I fantasized that he looked deep in my eyes and start to touch me where my hands were. He never looked away, he looked deep into my soul while he touched me gently and slowly.
"Oh my god Mason." I whispered while I rubbed myself. After a few minutes, I lifted my hips up and slid my hand in my pants and touched myself through my little panties. I sighed and pulled my shirt up so I could feel the air in the room touch my boobs. His voice, his eyes, the way he cared about me and loved me all went through my head while I touched myself. After another minute, I slid my hand into my panties and touched my bare slit and was shocked!
"Holy shit!" I said while I pulled my hand out of my panties and looked at my hand. It wasn't just wet, I had strings of my goo that connected to all of my fingers, I had never, ever in my life been as wet as I was then, ever! I lifted my pants and when I did, I gasped again because I saw how wet I really was. "Oh my god." I moaned while I looked in my pants and saw all of the mess I had that strung from my vagina to my panties. "Oh shit, if this is what he does to me now, I'm in ssssssoooo so much trouble." I said with a giggle before I laid back and pulled my pants and panties down just past my butt and spread my legs again.
I started to rub myself and pretended that it was Masons hand and that he was telling me how much he loved me over and over again while we kissed. I pretended that he started to get me naked, and while I did, I sat up and took my shirt off, I wasn't wearing a bra so that helped. I laid back again, closed my eyes and pretended that he started to kiss and touch my body all over the place. He went slow and took his time so he could explore my 19 year old body and take every inch of me in.
I pretended that he started to touch my vagina and even put his finger in me and started to make me feel really really good. After a few minutes of that, I needed more, so I looked around to see what I could find while I rubbed myself, and when I saw my hair brush that I got from the hospital, I got even wetter. I didn't even think it was possible to be as wet as I was as it was, and now I was way wetter! I got up and grabbed the brush before I went back to my bed and pulled my pants and panties off completely so I was completely naked.
I laid back on my bed and started to rub myself slowly while I pretended that Mason was on top of me and naked. Make love to me please, I thought while I pictured him looking in my eyes the way he always did. I slowly slid the brush in me and pretended that it was Masons dick, and when I did, oh my god.
It felt so good that I couldn't stop no matter how hard I tried. I started to moan for Mason and tell him that I loved him while I pretended that he was making love to me. And when it felt like I was going to pee, I stopped because I didn't want to pee in my bed. It felt so so good though! I got up and cleaned my brush before I put it away, then I got dressed and laid back down.
It took hours for me to not be horny anymore, and it was so bad that I had to touch myself three or four times. The more I laid there, the more I had different ideas on how Mason would make love to me, my favorite one that made come so close to peeing really fast was one about a shower.
He came out in a robe and I was standing in his room, he just walked up to me and kissed me before he untied his robe and dropped it, he was completely naked and he had a boner.
He let me do things to him that my ex husband would never allow me to do, like touch his dick with my hand and kiss it. Seeing him look down at me while I was on my knees with his new yummy look, oh my god! The only reason I did stop feeling horny was because I fell asleep, that was it. The next morning after we all had breakfast, I noticed that a lot of the people in there had visitors coming to see them.
I was sitting with my friends and talking to them about Mason because one of them heard me masturbating and moaning for him, I was ssssoooo so embarrassed! I was telling them about him and I was even wearing his hat that he let me wear until I got out of the hospital.
I was describing him and how he looked and they didn't believe that I had a friend like him. "Kaylee, Kaylee Roberts." I heard a lady yell. "Right here." I said while I raised my hand. "You have a visitor." She said making me feel a little excited. "Ok, coming." I said. "No you're good, he can come to you if you want." She said. "Ok that works." I said right when I saw Mason bending down to walk in the room, he must have just gotten off of work because he still had his uniform on.
He looked at me and smiled really big and when my friends saw him, they all looked at him like they were in shock. "Ok, we stand corrected." One of my friends said.
"He's a paramedic?" Another asked making me nod my head yes. The second he walked in, it was like they all pretty much disappeared, all I saw was him. I mean, I saw a whole bunch of girls looking at him like they liked him a lot, but he was mine, I already made my mind up that I was going to court him again when I got out of the hospital.
But I kinda had tunnel vision, he was right there again! "Hey beautiful, how do you feel?" He asked while he wrapped me up in his arms and picked me up. "I'm better now that you're here." I said. "I can not believe how beautiful you are." He said while he held me.
"Thank you." I said after I lifted my head and looked in his eyes. "I'm serious, and you're welcome." He said. "You look amazing as always, actually you look even more amazing with this new look." I said. "I'm glad you like it because I don't wanna change it." He said while he looked in my eyes. "So you're going to keep all of this?" I asked while I pulled his pony tail around so I could see his hair and play with it.
"For you yes, I'm keeping it because I wanna be sexy for you." He said with a smile. "But just for me right?" I asked. "Yes, just for you." He said making sparks fly between us again. "Good because if you cut this and shave, I'll be mad at you. You're seriously like, way way hotter like this like, oh my god." I said making his eyes sparkle and sparks get bigger.
"Are you sure you don't wanna court me now?" He asked making me start shaking and my palms start sweating. "No." I said while he held me. "No?" He asked. "No, I'm not sure." I said. "It hasn't even been twenty four hours since I found you and I'm not even sure either." He said softly. "What are you doing to me?" I asked. "I should ask you the same thing." He replied while his amazing green eyes moved from side to side looking into mine. "I'm guessing we have the same answer." I said. "Yeah, I'd say so.
It feels so good to have you in my arms again, I don't even think you realize how good it feels." He said. "Yeah, I think I do actually." I said. "I brought you some stuff and I threw in a few things for you." He said. "Ok." I said. "So I talked to your mom for a long time this morning, you're right, she does love me." He said with that amazing smile while he put me down. "I told you." I said while he took my hand and walked me to one of the tables. Ooooohhhh my god!!
I love him, I thought while we sat down. "She told me some things that really clicked with me, and well, let's just say that I hope things go the way I hope they do." He said. "What, do you mean that you hope we court and stuff again?" I asked. "Yes." He said. "Don't worry, it'll happen for sure, trust me, there's a one hundred or more percent chance that we will be together again like we were." I said. "I don't think I'll be able to sleep today." He said with the biggest smile.
"Why not?" I asked. "I have you back." He said like a kid who just heard some amazing news. "I know the feeling, I still can't believe you found me, it almost doesn't feel real." I said. "Tell me about it, so I came with some of your stuff, your mom called the girls that helped you escape and they called your security team.
They got me into your apartment and the girls helped me grab some of your clothes, so here they are." He said while he slid a suitcase around for me. "Thanks." I said with a smile while he looked at me like he wanted to kiss me really bad, I only knew that look because he use to give me that look every time before we ended up kissing or making out. "It's got some underwear and bras in there for you, I packed what ever else I could for you. Love the panties by the way, I didn't realize that you wore that." He said making that tingly feeling come back.
"Well, one of these days you're going to see those on me, so what else did you bring?" I asked while he looked at me all shocked and with a smile. "I put two of my uniform shirts in there so you can wear those and remember me." He said while he looked deep in my eyes. "Yay! Thank you!" I said.
"But that's not all, I went ahead and got this for you as we discussed." He said while he pulled a brand new iPhone out of his pocket. "Mason, that's not the phone I had." I said with a smile while he handed it to me.
"I know, and don't worry, I didn't have them do the upgrade on your account, I just got this for you.
I don't have any idea who was on your contact list so for that I'm sorry I couldn't get all of your numbers back. I did however, program my number and your moms number in it while I was at the store.
I also called my phone with it so I have your number programmed in my phone. Plus I sent all of those pictures we took together on the way here to your phone and saved them, now swipe your screen." He said making me swipe my screen.
I almost started to cry! He not only sent me the pictures of me and him, he saved my new favorite one. You know, the one where he was kissing my cheek and I was doing the pouty face like I was waiting to kiss him, and it was my lock screen pic!
"Thank you, thank you so much Mason, you're so so amazing to me." I said while I hugged him. "Please keep that on you at all times so I can call and text you, and you're very very welcome. I meant what I said when I told you that I'm going to be here to help you through all of this." He said. "Now I'm really not sure if I wanna wait to be with you again, you're so so amazing." I said while he held me.
"Well, I'll wait if I have to, but if I don't I'll do back flips." He said making me laugh. "Thank you." I said while I let go of him but stayed really close. "Kaylee hun, it's time for your appointment." One of the nurses said. "Ok, I'll be right there." I said.
"Buzz kill." Mason said while he pointed at the nurse making me laugh. "Listen here mister, I will cut you." She said making me a little mad because she was threatening my man, well, that's what I thought at first. "Yeah whatever, you wouldn't hurt a fly, cmon who are you kidding?" He asked while he looked at her. "Shut up." She said while she laughed. "See, see what I mean?" He asked while he looked at me making me laugh.
"It's good to see you Mason." She said. "I know, it always is." He said jokingly making me and the nurse laugh again. "Don't make her late." She said while she walked off. "One of your classmates?" I asked. "Yep, she's a softie, don't worry." He said making me laugh again.
"Thank you so so much for everything." I said while I hugged him again. "Anything for you Kaylee, I mean it." He said. "I know." I said. He got up and hugged me again before I walked him to the door where I hugged him again. I watched him leave before I went to my first session, and believe me, it was kinda brutal.
They had the note that I wrote to Mason before I tried to kill myself, but I was finally able to talk about everything that happened to me, well, at least I started to anyway. Like I said, I was so so ready to get better because I had a reason to get better, and my reason for living and getting better just walked out the door of the hospital I was in. When I went to my group therapy session, I got to tell them my story about when Mason was taken from me. I told them how that was the one thing that ruined my life, and how depressed and mad I was about how he was ripped away from me.
I wasn't expecting to cry as much as I did, but I felt so so much better after I told them about all of that. After dinner, I took my new friends to my room so we could hang out, and that's when I unpacked the suitcase that Mason brought to me and plugged my brand new phone he bought me in to charge. I called him that night, and oh my god it was so amazing to just talk to him, his voice was so so soothing and amazing! We even talked until I fell asleep, yeah, I was definitely still in love with him like I was when we were in the order, I had no doubt about that at all!!